Cleaning out my closet

I anxiously take my temperature a few times a day 🤒 (as advised by my doctor) to watch for fevers /infection, hoping so hard that I don’t end hospitalized. Despite seven days post chemo white blood cell shots 💉🧬 (that are causing some pretty unbearable joint/bone pain) I barely made the cut to get my…

The Summer of 2019

In the early days of sorting my cancer out I went through varying stages of dismay. When things started to get serious and I knew I was going to need a hysterectomy, not be able to life my babies for 6 weeks, miss 6 weeks of work, go into menopause early–I was devastated. Then further…

The Things That Define Us.

Thinking about your legacy–who you are, how you want to be remembered, it’s weird. The things that define us are so often made up of the small and seemingly insignificant idiosyncrasies for the people around us. First and foremost, I’m a mom. At a certain time in life that truly became my defining role. I’m…

Happy 37th Birthday to “our” girl 🎂❤️🎉

It’s now officially June 17th, 2019 and my beautiful best friend turns 37 today. I should probably be upstairs next to her asleep after our late night out at emerg with Gallagher (croup attack) which found us out till 4 am last night😴😴, (thanks to Connie who came to watch our girls!). It never ceases…

The days in between

I have made it my mission to embrace my time, whenever I can. To smile. To make happy memories. I choose to focus on the positive — every chance I get. I look at my blog and Insta and see a pretty glamorous life looking back. And, it can be. I’m not taking this time…

Paris is always a good idea

I was mentally preparing to start chemo on the following Monday – just waiting on the time. But with two Easter holidays they ended up being too backed up, so I had to wait a week. I don’t tend to be an envious person, cancer aside, I’m pretty lucky in life. But, having just flipped…

Let’s get ready to rummmmble…..

I’m back in the fight. 🥊 I did my first round of the new chemo last week. It ended up being four days of infusions, and I was definitely out for the count through the week and weekend, BUT I tolerated these new drugs far better then last from a nausea standpoint. I had left…

….You make lemonade

In our case, the lemonade was a two week road trip to Florida. I’ve always wanted to take the kids to Disney, and Universal (Wizarding World of Harry Potter to be exact) so after the scan results came in we made a quick decision to pack the van, as I knew more treatment or surgery…

When life gives you lemons….

A few days after my last scan Justin came home mid-day.  I knew what it meant immediately.  The doctor had called him, and told him the results of my scan.  I was not clear of cancer.  I have a tumour on my liver and nodules in my lungs. My world stopped momentarily.  The current status…

I’ve got one hand in my pocket….

I’m up and eating with the family again ❤️ so happy. For a change, we had 90’s pop playing in the background instead of Sinatra and a song I had listened to a million times in my youth resonated in a new way. If you came of age in the 90’s it will be a…